A few minutes ago, someone sms-ed me and ask me am i ok?
To say that i'm ok will mean that i'm actually lying to myself.
And not to lie to myself, i'm not ok.

The past few hours have been extremely tormenting to me already.
Having the worry of what will i be diagnosed with this time round?
And why am i having so much sickness at such a young age?
Can't i for once live my life as a healthy young adult?

A few hours ago,
I went to the polyclinic to see a doctor.
Because i've actually been having lower and upper back pain for the past year plus already.
So doctor put me on x-ray 1st thing tomorrow morning.
Let's see what kind of results will come out at the end.
I've been aware of my condition myself that i went to check books out and read on it.
And i came across to know this problem as MS aka multiple sclerosis.
It is a back deformation condition that affected the nerve system of the body,
that will affect the hands, eyes, walking and moving ability of the victim.
I asked the doctor if i have a possibility to get it,
He said, might have to prepare for it.
But he hope that it's just posture problems that i have that's all.

After that check-up just now,
i have to be put on x-ray tomorrow..
If unable to find anything from tmr,
gonna have to prepare a few thousand dollars for MRI scan.
And might have to prepare a few thousand dollars for spine corrective surgery.

God, i'm not gonna be prepared for the worst.
Bcoz, i know that you are gonna be there for me and heal me.
God, I need you..