Hi Guys,
Ben's back to post.. haha..
Just wanna show u all some pics.. haha.. enjoy!!!!~ =)
It's regarding what i bring to school everyday for classes and what i wear during class..
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First up, is a picture of what i bring to school everyday.. haha.. basically, it's placed inside a toolbox (the black thingy there) and put it with a lock and hand carry it to sch.. Really heavy stuff..

Whisk, pastry brush, 100ml containers, scrapper, carving kit, thermometer, lighter, long rulur, thongs, piping bag, star and plain nozzels of various sizes, melon baller, zester, horse-shoe peeler, pastry cutter, sharpening steel, chinese cleaver, palette knife, pastry knife, chef's knife, filleting knife, boning knife, paring knife and turning knife.. (not in sequence)

Looks more like what a serial killer brings with him to sch rather than a cook.. LOL!!!
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Next up, we have a presentation of what i wear in school..

Here are the shoes, Rossi.. Good stuff.. really light, slip proof, ankle protection, steel toe.. comfortable to wear.. no worries standing with it for 10 hours non-stop (i'm flat footed for ur info)..

Tmr will be back to practical cooking class already.. So excited.. haha.. tmr will be making:
- Plain Omelette
- Pad Thai Noodles with chicken
- Carrot Strudel with rocket pesto
- Gnocchi Italienne
- Roasted pumpkim with pinenut sauce
- Walnut and Olive Oil Sauce
- Oeuf En Cocotte Lorraine
- Champignons Farcis

Thurs will be preparing:
- Sushi
- Mini Seafood Pizza
- Spinach and fetta cheese triangles..

YUMMY STUFF!!!.. hahaha.. looking forward to clas..
blog till here bah.. haha.. be back soon =)

What Benjamin Means

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

Blogging once and again..
Woke up really early today.. (4am.. is that early enough??)
Slept at 8.45pm ystd.. was feeling really sick and tired ystd.. although i woke up at 2pm..

I just want to take this time to blog about what i've been feeling inside of me lately..
The feelings and thoughts that i have.. Especially alot about my life..
It's like a self-reflection kind of thing..
So this post is so gonna be boring.. Unless u are really interested what in the world has been going on in this benben's mind..

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Like what i've posted yesterday, time has really fly pass alot..
4 months in perth already..
What've i really been doing all this while..

I was thinking just now as i was feeling bored..
After some blog hopping and reading post of my friends..
I feel really bad..
To the extent that really really bad about myself..
Really Really bad..
So bad that i just took 5 mins.. To just step one step back..
To think and reflect..
Think about what has been going wrong all this while.. Ever since i've left..
In my own terms, it's called self-contridicting time..

sometimes it's really good to contridict one self..
Not to the esteem that u are having really very low self esteem..
But to the extent that it's time for u to close a chapter in your book and start a new one..
I feel that it's time for me to close this chapter titled: Ben's first 4 mths in australia without God
But open a new chapter called: Benjamin's new life here with God..

Firstly, after reading a blog of my cell member and talking to them to those back in singapore, i just feel really down.. but at the same time, really encouraged.. Ever since my departure, i have to admit that i've neglected God a lot.. Especially when it comes to prayer, fasting and even simple task like reading the bible daily.. It has been ages since i've opened that book which is always full of mysteries.. The book which is so full of teachings and never ending things that i can learn just by reading the stories inside..

It's like all my members have already grown so much.. so much more mature.. and each time i talk to them, i personally can feel how much they have grown.. not just mentally or physically, but spiritually as well.. It's like God is everything to them.. I remember myself back in singapore once that i used to be like that.. always ever ready to serve God and His people.. Having the fear of Him.. but now, seems like it's all gone.. Totally gone now.. I've already lost all my purpose of living.. Lost all my purpose of moving on..

Sorry to disappoint all my church mates back in singapore, especially my cell group who has been always praying for me.. I still feel the protection that i once had.. but it's not as strong anymore.. it's like i am not even trying to help myself.. I feel so much in pain as typing this.. It has been so long since i hear christian songs as well.. Feel so contridicted now.. My heart seems so hurt.. like grieving.. really feel like crying now..

It seems like i'm feeling how it's like to feel neglected.. Just like how i've neglected my Father.. My only Father whom i know of.. My Abba Father.. Now flashbacks are just happening inside my head.. it's like how far i've come all the way here is not bcoz it's coincidental or it's totally fate that brought me here.. It was my Father who brought me all the way here.. My Father who has gave me all those blessings and protection to come over this far..

"Take Me as You find me, all my fears and failures, Fill my life again".. Just like the lyrics in the song Mighty to Save by Hillsongs.. Take all my fears and failures.. Fill my life once again Dad.. I want u to be with me every single moment of me life..

Secondly, i just feel that i've been totally being a bad guy.. Being really selfish.. where is the Ben who used to treat his sports leaders and friends to meals and drinks.. who never worries about money.. So what if i'm financially not doing very well now.. It doesnt matter.. "bless and it shall be given back to you".. What you sow is what you reap.. I want to be a blessing in everyone's life..

Thirdly, i really want to apologise to a few groups of people.. for so many things.. It's time that i really feel remorse about my past behaviors.. even tho i never like to talk about the past, i just feel that an apology is really neccessary for me to move on.. with all these remorse in my heart, i don't think i'll never move on.. I want to apologies to my teachers back in marsiling sec, my friends and people around me.. Sorry for tolerating with my nonsense.. I was a bad bad boy..

After saying so many things, no point thinking about the past le.. History is what happened the second before u are in now.. So how is the new chapter of my life going to be?.. I wonder what kind of story will i write for my term 2 in Tafe.. what kind of story will i write for the rest of my life??.. I dont know.. But for sure, everything is so going to be different.. I believe that i'll move on to be someone better.. Grown up =) it's time to move on.. no point pondering about what's happening to everyone in singapore or missing them miserably.. Be glad that they are doing well and i'll have to be as well as everyone back home.. So i promise everyone here today.. that I'll be a better person..

Change can never happen overnight.. But i can happen over a period of time.. I still have 7 mths plus before i return to singapore.. Hmm.. i wonder how will everyone be at that time??.. Who are the ones who will be there to fetch me when i return.. How will I be like?? Can't wait for the future.. can never move hold while being obsess with the past..

Hmm.. I wonder.....................

Hi guys, i'm back to blog once and again.. haha
today is officially my 4th month in Perth..
hmm.. so in order to commemorate today, i've decided to drop by to blog..

so any thoughts and feelings?
hmmmmm.. neutral bah i guess..
i remember myself first coming here all along..
Boarding the Quantas Plane..
Feeling very lonely..

The week before i came here was never to be forgotten..
I remember myself spending those time,
with all my precious ones..
Like my brother, my cell group, my brothers, my usher mates and friends..
They will all never be forgotten..

I remember my times when i first came here what was it like..
Especially living in a warehouse, working and living in northbridge..
In a hot and stuffy environment..
Trying to get my student visa approved..
Those were the days i had struggling in perth..
Never will be forgotten as well..

School started for me on 5th Feb.. as monday is my off day..
nice times i have in school..
get to know so many people from all over the world..
Seems like my social of friends is indeed getting wider with no boundaries at all.. nice feeling =)

Coming here, i've also started to play badminton..
Although i do not really have the time to play frequently,
i'm still able to train once a week..
Had a fun time always with all my baddie mates..
Made so many new close friends..
Especially the sisters Cynthia and Averil..
Nice girls to talk to =)

Seems like time really flies really fast..
Soon, i'll be returning to singapore..
In december =.=
I'll be back till after CNY den i'll return back to Perth..
When i return, i dont think i'll want to do much
besides, it's vacation time right??.
so i guess i wont want to cook much..
Only during special days and events bah..
Den i'll cook to practice my skills and train abit.. to refresh my memory..

So peeps out there??
waiting for me to return??..
Soon bah.. just 7 mth plus to go.. =)
tahan lah.. wait for me..
don't kanchong lah.. hahahahahahahaha..

Can't really get to sleep lately..
Feel abit empty recently..
like something very important is missing in my life..
hahaha..
that's right, it's freaking holidays time.. =(
i hate holidays..
especially when i love school alot..

the past week was nth but 1 day of work at night..
cut grass and do housework in the day..
totally no life..
no one to go out with..
even home is bored as well..
with that crazy girl and elter back in singapore..
the house is so quiet..
back to how it was in the beginning anyway..

anyway, i watched live service today..
really enjoyed it alot..
feel totally spiritually recharged..
really felt the strong presence of God..
althought it's just watching through the internet..
really make me wept in the presence..
i've found my strength once again.. =)

Well, today was my 1st day of work..
supposed to be han's cafe.. but now more of a box 3 staff.. hahaha..
had alot of fun and excitement today..
industry standard is really not easy..
but it helps to get me better yeah??

not really happy with the pay..
but too bad.. bcoz of my age, that's what i get..
tks to australian law.. LOL!!!..
weird law here to pay by age..
wont post how much i earn here..
but i'm looking forward to work nxt wk.. =)
gotta apply for tax file number le.. hahahah..

blog till here bah.. will drop by again tmr.. =)

Ok guys, i'm back here to blog..
well apparently, i'm here today to blog to post pics of myself..
not that i'm a narcissist or what..
but ppl just keep on pestering me to post pics of myself..
so i'm gonna post on how much i've changed throughout the past 4 mths since i've been here..
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This was me on the 26th dec.. just before i came here.. after my hair cut.. LOL


This was a few days after i arrived here.. at busselton jetty.. towards margaret river..

Me a week or 2 after the new year.. at traflgar.. east perth.. the most expensive houses in the entire perth.. really beautiful place..


Taken in Feb.. 2nd week of sch.. my hair looks like a freaking afro.. LOL


This was taken 4 weeks ago.. where i was in the toilet.. showcasing my uniform.. haha.. for my cooking class.. i look so fierce.. feeling tired bah.. haha..

Another toilet shot.. taken a week after i taken that one in chef uniform.. haha.. this one is for my restaurant and bar class.. i am so freaking tan now lah i reckon.. same post and pattern as the one above.. hmm.. maybe i lack of ideas of posing bah.. haha.. really tired that day.. =)

This was taken 3 weeks ago.. during my mum's wedding day.. hair back to original length.. spikes abit longer than usual.. but fringe still not back yet.. LOL

Taken at Kings Park.. just a slight show of delight.. haha.. also taken during the day of my mum's wedding..

This was taking last week.. when i was locked outside my place... didnt bring the keys out.. haha.. emo-ing.. idolising the clouds in the sky.. wondering if it looks the same as singapore.. i've already forgotten or only have a slight impression of how everything looks like in singapore.. haha.. abit fast, but maybe it's bcoz i feel that i belong here right from the start bah.. never thought of myself as a singaporean but just a wanderer.. stateless.. but regardless of what, i'm still a singaporean.. everything of mine is in singapore.. haha.. i'm proud to be one =)

alot of people say i look different in this picture.. hmm.. i wonder why and in what sense??

so peeps and mates of mine out there.. what do u think?? has benben grown fatter or thinner?? has benben become more handsome or still look the same??

shall blog till here.. nxt post on my place here coming up =)

FINALLY GUYS..
JUST WANT TO SAY THAT:

I'VE FOUND A JOB!!!!!!!!!!

at carousel.. cannington.. haha.. at Han's cafe there as a waiter..
wish me all the best yeah??
hope that i'll do well in my training and get into work as soon as possible..

Back to blog again..
Finally, term 1 is officially over for me in swan tafe..
still got 7 more terms i get my diploma
and 9 before i get my advanced diploma and graduate..
and before i return to singapore after the 2nd july 2010..

i wonder how will i be like by then..
will i be a better guy?
a true professional?
not just as a chef,
but as a bartender, waiter and a hotel staff as well..
how well will i excel??
where will i be heading nxt..
what's installed for me nxt time..
will i be a strong man of God as well??

term 1 is finally over..
i've really learned many things..
made new friends..
now it's really time for me to reflect on myself..
on how can i go on to the nxt term stronger..
i may be one of the youngest student of tafe
and the youngest international student in the entire course..
but God say let the youth not be despised..
so i'll aim to be the best
be the youngest student ever to get a distinction.. =)
it may be hard and tough..
but i'll practice hard..
show everyone that i'm not a small kid..
but a reliable person..

so how was i the past term?
my life was filled with darkness practically at the beginning..
knowing no one..
stepping into a foreign land all alone..
but soon, i found my path..
in the best class that i can be..
a place where i can really be myself..
a class of hope..
a class of peace..
a class of excellence..
a class of laughter..
everything and anything good..

term 1 really thought me alot of things..
not just in skills in cooking or hospitality..
but also in relating to people..
really gave me a good reflection..
it was really like a complete 180 degree turn for me..
it was my 1st step into adulthood..
into adult learning..
i have lots of classmates who are 10 years older than me..
so what?? hospitality is not all about age..
learning is not all about age..
friendship is not all about age..
capability is not all about age..
age is never a key factor..
attitude is..

i hereby conclude this for end of term 1:
benjamin has died.. ben has been born..
i no longer remember who benjamin is..
i love school!!! and i love australia!!!!!
i miss singapore terribly as well.. the memories that will always stay in my heart..
it will never die

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