Today i just got a news..
It was something bad that i've been feeling the past few weeks..
I've been telling yong gao about it..
I even blog about it..

Just to say that
my grandma has being diagnosed with lymph note cancer.. 3rd stage..
But.. the cancer cells have already spread
And she's too old to have anything done to her..
Hmm.. i can't do anything much..
Except to pray and motivate her to fight on..

I ever promise her this before..
That i'll bring back my gf to let her see..
And i told her that she'll be old and strong enough to attend my own wedding..
I even told her that i got someone who i really like a lot..
And she told me to bring her back one day..

Hope she get well soon bah.. =)

Hey..
Back to blog..
Recently, i've been into a few singers..
All time low, Hawk Nelson, The Wedding etc etc..
And i really love this song alot..
So i've decided to use it as my blog's song..

I still miss you - Hawk Nelson

really nice song..
I believe it's written for his grandma or something..
When i heard this song, it really stirr up the feelings in my heart..
Especially about my own grandmother..
Bcoz i feel rather guilty..
I went to visit her 3 days before i left for australia..
But i didnt tell her that i was leaving..
I didn't want her to think too much..
Now, i acutally dare not to call her and ask her how is she..
I'm just afraid that she's angry with me for leaving just like this..

This song also makes me think about everyone in singapore..
4M3, Sports Leaders, Badminton mates, Seniors, Juniors and teachers of MSL, my cell group, my friends, family, relatives and of course a special girl in my life bah.. =)
EVERY SINGLE ONE TO BE PRECISE..
I really miss them all..
And like the song said..
"But i still miss you, all the times we spent together, to hear you talk about the weather"
This part really makes me think of my times with everyone in singapore..

Anyway, Enjoy the song..
Here's the lyrics..
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I still miss you - Hawk Nelson
There she was, 5 foot 3
a picture of my mother's mother
She showed me love, and all the ways of God
Her final days were spent in bed where she passed away
I won't forget her smiling face when she left us that night

But I still miss you
All the times we spent together
To hear you talk about the weather
I always prayed you'd get well soon
I wish my prayers came true
I know Jesus has the answer
And He's way bigger than the cancer in you
But I still miss you

If dreams came true, just one more chance to talk to you
And thank you for the time you spent teaching me the truth
A boy back then, I've grown up, now I'm a man
I can finally understand the things you said to me

But I still miss you
All the times we spent together
To hear you talk about the weather
I always prayed you'd get well soon
I wish my prayers came true
I know Jesus has the answer
And He's way bigger than the cancer in you
But I still miss you

I need some help to carry on
I need some strength to keep me strong...
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Blog till here bah.. haha.. will blog again tonight..
With Pics of course..

it's so pain now..
Really pain..
Really really pain..


Bcoz i've just realised something..
I was indeed the biggest fool of all..
To have so much hope in something...
To love someone this much..
But in the end, i got answers that i wasn't expecting at all...
haix..
An idiot i am.. the biggest of all..


It's too pain already...
SO much that my tears can't come out..
Don't ask me why...
Just leave me alone for the time being bah..

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Today was the day where i've seen the best badminton playing ever in my life..
I saw a lot of stars as well.. haha.. World no.1 badminton players in the early 80s..
It was really an eye opener..

The best part was when i saw the finals of the men singles and the mens semi finals..
Where it all involved Nicholas Kidd and Tiger Chen (i know.. tiger.. what a name.. LOL)
But it was really good..
Anyway, Nicholas Kidd is England's national badminton player..
And Tiger was really on par with him.. But lack of stamina den lost to him..
I have to say this.. it was really professional standard..
Especially the way how nicholas kidd played..
Although he made alot of errors and thus lost the 1st set..
In the end, he won overall.. LOL..

His wrist was really flexible..
His bounce was really there..
He was like a rocket..
He really recovered really fast..
Honestly, the game he had against tiger.. Got the crowd roaring and cheering.. haha..

Had fun today..
Tmr start of sch.. MORE EXCITED OF IT!!!.. MWHAHHAHAHAHA

Today i'm going to blog with the post titled "Yvonne Tay"
Didn't really want to add the surname there..
But i know way too many yvonnes already.. hahaha..
So today this blog post is of course gonna be written bout her..

Well, she's my sec 1 classmate..
I believe i sat with her before..
Seriously, i thought she was a lesbian.. =.="
bcoz always with farah.. LOL.. hahahaha.. they are really close..
But those were the younger secondary school days when we are childish..

But recently, i was chatting with her..
Getting into certain topics..
In fact.. MANY TOPICS..
hmm.. apparently, i feel that she's a really nice person to talk to..
No offence yvonne, but i used to think u are a bitch.. LOL =X
Her thinking is indeed very mature.. haha..
maybe bcoz she has also gone thru alot in her life as well bah..
In both as a child and another in terms of her love life..

She really shared with me a lot about her experience the past few days..
and we of course talked nonsense lah despite all the serious talkiing..
Like she wants to have her boy to sing 99 songs for her =.=" i was like WTH lah..
Who will want her nxt time.. hahaha...

So through this time of talking,
i seriously got myself to understand a lot of things more..
It's like in terms of how a person thoughts are..
And what really affects them..
And it's indeed what people have gone thru in life makes them have this sort of thinking nowadays..
Something else also affects people's thinking..
It's who and what they interact with..
Like if u were to interact with someone alot..
or love someone really alot..
U will of course be influenced by his/her thinking..

I've also learned that it's kinda interesting how optimistic how people can be.. hahahaha
like that friend of hers..
it's really entertaining when u hear how he comforts himself about his looks..
I always wondered this,
why does people like to judge or love another despite the looks..
or despite what they hear??..
Why can't people just go and see how their character is??..
Or just stay and accompany and talk with them for a few moments..
It might make u know them better..
Imagine urself in shoes of such people.. How will u feel??
I actually grew up in a very judgemental environment..
I was called and labelled a stupid child by one of my aunties.. *shall not elaborate further*
Just because i can't do as well as my cousin when it comes to studies..
I was also always called the "fat boy".. or "ah fat"..
seriously speaking.. these phrases really ruins the thinking of someone..
Making them think they are really fat.. or they are really stupid..
Usually i'll always say this.. if ur thinking is ruined, everything is.. bcoz ur mind controls every single part of your body..

She has been emphasising on this as well..
About how hurting can love be?.. Especially it's ur 1st love..
To me, in my whole life
i've never ever had a single girlfriend before.. (SHOCKING!??!?!??!)
yup.. that's me.. so i didn't know how she feel..
But i've learned it from her..
and come to an understanding..
bcoz i was kinda like considered "abandoned" by my own dad.. (sensitive topic, but i'll talk bout it if u ask me)
anyway, just to let everyone out there know.. despite how sad and devastated u are from u having ur relationship ended..
Trust me, it's not the freaking END OF THE WORLD!!!.. LOL..
There is someone out there who is definately waiting for you, to love you and to take care of you
To be your best friend..
and it's all only a matter of time.. Leave it all up to fate bah.. haha.. or all up to God =)

I was chatting with yvonne about this..
it was really hilarious.. hahahahahaha...
A girls likes a guy..
And one day, the girl decided to ask him this qns..
Girl: Darling ah, do i look fat or thin to you
Boy: Errrrr.. =.="

Guys, have u all been put in this situation before??..
haha..
When u anwer the girl that she's thin, she'll most prob say "DON'T BLUFF" or get into over indulgence
When u answer the girl that she's fat, she'll most prob say "GO AND DIE" or become anorexic.. LOL..
True or not??.. hahaha..

Talking to her, we happen to chat about what she thought of me??.. LOL..
She told me how was i last time and now..
Comparing it..
I must say something..
I was such an ASSHOLE last time.. LOL..
Hope i'm a better guy now =)

She was also telling me that what will girls do when they like guys..
So i was asking her some personal qns.. hahah..
And i got my answers..
So i've decided to do something..
For me to know for u to find you =X

** Anyway yvonne, sorry for using u as an example and tks for ur entertaining chat and hearing my feelings out =) **

Labels: Thoughts and Feelings

Future stars tournament will be here in a few days time..
This coming weekend..
I'll be taking part in singles..
Hope my physical will improve within these few days..
My stamina has dropped drastically..
My goal for this tournament.. CHAMPION.. LOL..

I'll be very busy this week..
First gotta get myself recovered from sickness first..
I was down yesterday..
Was extremely sick
So sick that before i sleep, i told yong gao that if smth were to happen to me,
please tell her that i really love her.. LOL..
that's how serious it was..
I was like a walking zombie..
Totally dead like feelings..
I was bedridden ystd afternoon..
I was down with fever, flu, cough, my lips tore, headache, giddyness, sore throat and whole body aching..
Now, i feel better..

After this, i'll need to tone up my body..
Prepare myself for the tourney..
I've also worked out my training schedule..
As well as my schedule for this week..

Things i gotta do:
1) Vacuum and mop (kitchen) the house
2) Clean the toilet and bathing area
3) Pack up my room
4) Drop by morley to find the recreation centre
5) shopping for clothes (most prob at habour town)
6) Take nice scenary pics of perth..
7) Drop by fremantle
8) Training
9) Get racket from norm
10) Study and refresh my memory for school
11) Ironing
12) Wash bedsheet covers
13) Laundry
14) Study on selecting food products
15) plan on what to cook at the end of the year =)

anyway.. that's all i blog bah.. later someone complain my blog too wordy again =.="

I was watching the Oprah Winfrey show yesterday..
It touched an extremely extremely sensitive topic..
It was really related to me.. what i go thru when i was young..
How i really felt all these years..
When i watch it, it brought me to tears..
Brings me back the memories of what i have last time..

It touches a sensitive topic on divorce..
Also in regards to how the children will feel when parents divorced..
what makes them think and react in a certain manner..

In the show, they brought reality incident cases of real families and use them as case study..
They also got an expert.. a counsellor in such cases for kids..

Just to side-track abit..
Most of you do not know this..
Bcoz i don't talk bout my family a lot..
But I'm actually from a single parent family..
My parents actually divorced since i was 2 1/2 to 3 years old that time..
So since then, i've lived with my dad for 3 years.. and with my mum for 11 years..
And before and in the midst of my parents divorced..
I've experienced so many things that u all humans can never think of..
Shall not elaborate further.. hahahahah.. but i can share with u if u ask me on msn =)
it doesn't bother me a single bit at all.. hahah

Yup so to go on..
According to the show,
They showed 3 examples..

The 1st, the parents of 2 kids, a boy kris who was 3 then (now 5) and his sister daisy who was 9 (now 11), had their parents divorced..
So what happened was in the end, the mother had abandoned them..
She had left with another guy..
Something happened here..
The mother actually took the kids to meet the man..
Told them that this man can treat her better compared to their father..
As well, she just left them one day without a word..



What happened from this case was, the mum shld not have taken the kids to meet the guy..
The mum was really in a wrong..
She really shld not have said things to the kids like i do not love ur dad anymore..
She shld have at least be with the father, talk to the kids nicely..
And not told them it's their fault..
Make them assure what regardless of what happened, they will get the love from both their parents..
And both parents will meet them as well..

This kind of things happened very often..
Not just in the US.. but even in singapore as well.. Let's say, it's almost everywhere bah..
Where it happened when a couple wants to divorce..
And in the end, the real victim is their kids..
I really dislike such adults.. Extremely irresponsible..
i can only say this.. let's pray that God will touch them bah..

How does this affect the kids?..
It in most cases as what we see here, feel that it's their fault that their parents divorced..
It also make them feel more guilty especially when it comes to when they were begging their parents not to leave, but they still ignore them and leave..
It also caused an extremely deep wound inside of them..
Apparently, it affects their thinking and their future drastically..
It makes them extremely hot tempered in the future..
They will in alot of cases become introvets..
They tend to not be able to express themselves properly..
The only way of them expressing themself is by being angry.. and being really hot tempered..
They will do things to seek attention..
Some will go into fights.. to get beaten as they are guilty..
Some will be drunkards.. to numb the pain
Some will turn to drugs.. to numb the pain also
Some will be prostitudes.. turn to sex as a form of venting it out.. wanting to destroy themselves..
Apparently, alot will suffer from depression..
Eventually, when no one understands them, people avoid them
People will "shoo" from them..
People will think they are just idiots and hopeless people of the society.. Apparently, rejection..

So what should the parents do..
Before divorced, don't quarrel in front of their kids..
As well as say extremely nasty things about each other..
It ruins the image of either parents to the kids..
As parents are the main role models of the kids..
My advice??..
Parents to sit down, talk nicely to kids..
Tell them nicely.. both parents together..
Never badmouth bout the other parent to the kids..
and explain to the kids that it's not their fault..
let the kids know that despite whatever happens, daddy and mummy will be with them and not leave them.. and will still love them and get to see them..
let them know that it's never their fault that the parents are divorcing..
Lastly, ask them how they are feeling..
Not like very striaghtforward to them..
Like when u are doing a certain activity.. something fun.. or at a very oepn discussion..
Not being extremely direct.. this makes the "parent and child barrier" up..
Just talk to them nicely =)
it'll all turn out well..

As for people around such people..
my advice to you..
Just show the extra care and concern for them..
Give them the attention they need..
Also, not to the extend that they want to see u all the time..
There has to be a limit..
Also, in my opinion, talk to such people more..
U'll only get to know their true self when u know them better..
And u can't be fast to judge them as "hot tempered" or "attention seeker"
Put urself in their shoes.. if it happens to you.. how will u feel??
wouldn't it be the same??..
I can confirm this with u.. it's the same thing for me as well..
I was very hot tempered and very attention seeking..
Despite being very good with leading others..
Give them ur extra love as well, make them feel like family..
A family's love is unconditional.. U love them for whoever they are..

So i hope that people out there, can understand more bout such cases..
And also, learn to deal with these.. if lets say u were to experience it urself (choy) or if u were approached to help on such cases..

hope this helps =)
feel free to ask qns..

Labels: Thoughts and Feelings

Back to blog.. hahaha..
Firstly, gotta say that i just came back from work..
Tmr is Jeffery's bdae party.. I CAN'T GO!!!.. crappy lah.. haha
it's gonna be an interesting dress-up party..
Everyone in my workplace is so excited over it.. hahaha..
Sorry eh jeffery.. can't go.. FORGIVE ME.. hahaha..
Anyway, Jeffery today told me i got a pay raise.. hahaha.. by 45 cents.. LOL..
not alot.. but appreciated..
And i gotta work on wed, thur and fri night shift.. wah.. 3 long nights to go..

Anyway.. i went out with Wei Tai and Jia Le ystd.. haha..
Met them in sch.. wei tai pass to me my stuff.. Tks eh.. =)
So they went to buy their books.. Den went to eat in the canteen at the library of Curtin uni..
After that, they have class..
I was in perth city.. went for a walk.. hahaha.. boring mah..

Ok.. time for pictures.. Hardworking worx.. hahaha.. the books are so damn ex.. 100 plus aussie a book.. they have to buy a few.. "faints" school fees already so ex.. plus books.. wah.. more than my 1 year of sch fees leh.. hahaha..
Finally decided to take this.. haha.. in the end, they put it back.. too heavy le.. hahaha..
Jia Le eating a hot dog.. hahaha.. she told me to take this pic.. =X looks like something obscene.. shall not elaborate futher.. hahaha.. as u all know, Australia is a very open country.. and it made us more liberal.. LOL..
And in the end, something came out.. Jia Le say must take this pic more precisely.. LOL.. tks to my great camera skills.. it's cheese eh.. hahaha..
To end this post.. haha.. took a pic of the happy couple.. they are like the only people i know for the longest and are in perth lah.. hahaha.. will be going out with them this friday.. most prob go shopping, lunch and movie bah.. hahahaha...

looking forward to it =)

Labels: Australia

Decided to do this quiz as Qingzhen tagged me before..
Also, when i went to juliana's blog, i saw my name under it..
so since i'm bored and it's my holdiays.. no hard doing it right??.. hahaha..
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(01) What is your full name?
Tan Ming Zhi Benjamin..

(02) Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
France?? Deutschland??.. Somewhere around Europe.. I want to see it for myself.. I want to study there nxt time as well.. haha.. venturing out back-packing and experiencing to food around the world is what i wanna do..

(03) What's your favourite thing(s) to do?
Cooking.. Bartending.. Badminton.. Listenting to music.. Walking around and emo.. I love to look and research on spirits, alcohols, wines, food, culture and whatever that interest me very often.. It can be extremely random.. LOL..

(04) Do you think money can buy happiness?
N-E-V-E-R!!.. if that's the case, mine will be really cheap??.. since i'm easily contented and happy all the time =)

(05) If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
To build my own empire of hospitality institudes and industry venues all around the world.. I want to teach people whatever i've learnt.. as long as they have the passion for it.. No point keeping it to myself.. when we die.. knowledge die as well right??..

(06) Will you tell someone if you hate him/her?
I will never ever hate a person.. bcoz.. i've people around me who i totally forgive despite them ruining my life totally.. Hating only ruins myself.. no point eh.. hahaha.. I only forgive, forget and i love them =)

(07) How's the feeling when your best friend backstabbed you.?
LOL.. i've already seen it coming bah.. haha.. i'll just take it as i've trusted the wrong person bah.. Move on.. no point letting it ruin u??.. haha..

(08) Have you love a person deeply before?
Yes.. After i realised what love really meant and what it was..

(09) What do you dream of doing in the future?
I've already answered in qns 5.. I want to be a cook/bartender/hotel boss?? to teacher at the end.. i want to end as someone who teach..

(10)Wad songs tat you think is nice and wanna introduce to ur friend?
Hmm.. depends on what genre they like bah.. haha.. but i personally love eng songs..

(11) What makes you happy?
When you are happy, i am happy.. that simple =)

(12) How is it like to study overseas?
It's fun.. meeting different people of different cultures.. But just that i'll really miss home.. it's tough being so young.. studying and being all alone in a foreign land.. having to work to pay ur own expenses.. it's tough.. i'll only recommend it to the rich.. or unless if u are old enough or ready to endure all sorts of hardships.. den study overseas bah.. haha..

(13) Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
A professional in the Hospitality industry.. Someone with high ranking post..

(14) When someone says "Can i have your number?"
I will say "give me urs first can?.. we exchange.." den i'll give my overseas phone number.. LOL..

(15) Who is the most important person in your life?
God, my Family, my friends, my close ones, my cell group members, my school mates and her bah.. To me, everyone is very important in my life.. they all are vital keys to my growth.. especially when it comes to maturity..

(16) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Treasure everyday day, every min, every second.. As well as things and people around me..

(17) If you had a chance to change your life, what would you want to change?
I want to go back to secondary school again.. Experience school life again.. I'm only 17, and i'm already totally exposed to adulthood.. worst till overseas.. isn't it too young..?? but no point right??.. time can't be turned back.. so no point speaking of it.. We can only think positive and move forward..

(18)Ever fell off your bed?
Nope, i love sleeping on the floor.. my back hurts sometimes when i lie on the bed..

(19) Are you strong enough to take up all your emotions & burden by yourself?
No one is.. that's y we are all humans..

(20) Would you rather follow your heart or mind when deciding for the right one?
I'll ask my mind first.. den my heart.. den finally decides.. usually i pray bout it =) i'm holy XD
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Life is full of choices..
It's just a matter of which one we choose..
Choose the wrong path, it'll only lead to a dead end..
Whenever we reach a dead end,
We have no choice buy to turn back..
It's never too late to turn back
Bcoz as we turn back,
we know that there are other paths out there that are just wating for us..
Even if we go into another bad path,
or make another wrong choice,
it's all ok =)
Bcoz it means that at least you've tried..
Do not be afraid of making mistakes..
It's all just a matter of time of u reaching the destination..
Or making the wise right choices..

As we make wrong choices time and again,
Do not give up..
Do not fear..
Bcoz if life is just a dead end, it'll be boring right??..

Life is indeed so full of choices
So what choice will u make today??

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I've made a choice that i regretted when i was younger..
I was not humble..
I did not truly treasure things around me..
But today as i turn back and think and look at it..
I laugh at myself..
And say "Oh, How foolish was i??.. an insolent youth"
But as i think about it,
I have no choice but to move on..
Find the right path..
Making the right choice

Will u make the right choice with me today??

Labels: Thoughts and Feelings

I wanna take this time to especially thank 3 people.. hahaha..

1) Mr Huang You long =)
2) Mr Chen Wei Tai Billy.. =)
3) Uncle Lim =)

LOL..
bcoz they really did helped me alot..
haha.. to provide free delivery for me..
of my badminton stuff.. all the way from singapore to perth..
And they actually helped me when it's very inconvenient timings..

Really appreciate it guys..
* You long, i owe u a big meal when i return
* Billy, i owe u a meal as well.. also.. tks for bringing it for me even tho ur bag overweight by alot!!!!!
* Uncle lim.. tks for selling me the things at a really cheap and good price =)

Gonna post about my feelings after reading some people's blog posts..
I've came across a few blogs.. Each belonging to this year's MSL sec 1 badge..
Some belonging to their seniors.. Some, their friends from othe school
After reading these blogs.. I came to realised a few things that got me really disturbed..
It really worries me regarding the mindset of the younger generation these days..
Especially when it comes to differentiating between what's wrong and what's right..
And also, their definition of having fun??? or something that is cool???..

To me, it rather irritates me in regards to what is their decision that they make in life..
Well, it's their life, so i'm not suppose to be bothered bout it at all right??..
But if that is the society that singapore is going to become in the later generation,
it not only involves me..
it involves the entire country.. Every single one of them..


I often see this in people's post
"THIS IS MY BLOG, I CAN SAY OR DO WHATEVER I WANT WITH IT!!!"

looks familiar??.. hahahahaha..
People do not blog for the sake of blogging.. True??.. False??
but people actually blog to share what has happen in their life.. (hit the jackpot???)
to express themselves.. Some people actually find it easier to type it out rather than to say it out..
hmm.. but u know, people often never think of the consequences or what kind of impact will happen when they say such words on their blog..
Especially when the say things to criticise others??.. or when they talk bout their own life..
Apparently some of them thing what they are doing is right?..
But in actual fact they are actually making a fool out of their own self?.. LOL..

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Let me give u an example:
"Today i woke up.. don't feel like going to school sia.. damn bored.. stupid teacher always talk cock.. so in the end, i never go sch.. but.. i went out to "so and so" 's place sia.. hahahahaha.. damn fun lor.. hehe"

what impression do u actually have of this person??..
1) This person hates sch..
2) ORH HOR!!! never go school.. lazy bugger =.="
maybe even more things??.. hahahahaha...

Another example:
" I hate Mr XXXX.. He ah.. Because of what he say, i've decided not to go to sch already.. bleahx.. i'm so sick and tired of school sia.. all the teachers always kb me one.."

what impression do u have of this person leh??
1) Lazy
2) Childish
3) Petty, can't even take slightest remarks of their own teachers??.. LOL..
4) Most prob is a bad student.. If it's a good student, u think teacher will kb u??.. hahaa
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How ironic it is eh.. hahaha..
This is the younger generation that we are facing today.. the negative side..
Positive side of course will have.. it's good towards today's society.. =)
But, to make the society a better place, we gotta help the negatives..
by turning them into positives =)
it's gonna be hard..

It kinda reminded me of something.. from the bible..
Jesus sat down and eat with sinners.. people who are with sin..
hmmm.. this tells me one thing..
To help these people.. at times, we gotta step into their own world..
Understand how they feel.. Try to think the reason why they are doing these things..
I think this is one thing that a lot of people (in general) don't know how to do it..
To put themselves into one another's shoes.. Think as tho they are that person..
There is also a limit to it..

Let's say u step into someone's world..
But that person takes drugs and smoke.. into prostitution..
Doesn't mean that u have to take drugs, smoke and prostitude urself to understand that person??.. LOL..
It can only just mean by talking to them.. understanding them more..
Make them feel they are LOVED.. that's the main important thing =)

Oh ya.. and to all students.. let me tell u smth..
Most teachers actually read ur blogs.. just that they keep quiet bout it only =)
They actually know what's going on in your life..
Trust me, one day, they will be the ones who will help u when u are really in danger.. =)
Not all teachers i confirm.. but at least there are some with that compassion who will be there for everyone..

With this i shall come to a close bah.. Long, naggy post are boring..
Anyway, i thought a long time about this before posting.. and i've also considered what might happen to me if i were to say this things out on the internet..
It's can be seen all over the world.. hahaha..
I'm in australia.. but still, i read blogs from Singapore.. =.=" hahahahahaha

Labels: Thoughts and Feelings

Ok.. back to blog..
This week has been my 1st week of holiday.. hmm.. hadn't really been a fruitful one...
Have been like slacking off of sleeping off my day..

Let's talk bout my week first bah..
Monday was suppose to meet wey ying to go fremantle together..
She's like my closest friend from my work place lah.. although we only talk to each other a few times..
but i feel really close to her lah.. hahha.. she's a really nice girl =)
But!!!.. she was sick.. so didn't go in the end..
I wanted to treat her to the best fish and chips in the entire western australia.. Cicerellos
But too bad, she can't make it.. it was her last day in perth =.="
she's going back to her ulu ulu kelantan.. LOL.. she always say that..

hmm.. skip skip..
had to work on wed night.. it was so last min.. GRRRR!!!.. Lily.. gonna skin her alive..
She called me last min to tell me i gotta report at 5.30pm.. but she called me at 5.35pm..
Nvm.. rushed down as mum drove me there.. so worked.. damn slack..
but i did the mopping and the bringing in of chairs and tables..

Thurs:
i woke up at 6.30am.. did some exercise.. ate some healthy food..
I need to train my stamina back.. Really weak now..
I used to be fitter than what i am now.. Way fitter..
The weather is so hard to train as well..
Imagine urself.. skipping behind ur yard.. Either ur dog chase after u, or as u skip that time, as u breathe out, mist is coming out of your mouth.. LOL..
that's how cold it is here nowadays..
And winter is bout to start.. "faints!!!~"
and weather forcast say that sunday and monday will be 2 degrees.. wah.. lagi worst..
Did some blog hopping.. happen to see some blogs and friendster profile of the current sec 1 badge of MSL.. will elaborate more later.. =)
Went to work after that..

Came home.. it's like finally lah.. She came online..
but i did some work for her again.. and tks to me once again, she's able to do it fast..
I really wanted to talk to her..
But it seems like she's always busy..
I den talked to yong gao about how i really felt..
Something really personal..
Yong Gao is usually the only person i pour out all my feelings to..
He's like the only one who i really can open up to.. (we are not gay.. anikis.. hahaha)
Because, he and i are really alike.. in terms of thinking and character as well.. =)

Friday:
Woke up.. had driving lesson..
Really enjoyed today's driving lesson.. Learned bout parking.. haha..
My LSB seems to be really good now.. hahaha..
and changing or gear now.. having more confidence.. as well as my turning..
hmm.. i think by sept the latest shld pass already???.. hahaha..
i think all i need is more confidence bah..
Ate Macdonalds today..
Power napped.. and went to work.. hahaha..
Feel really weird bout work lately.. Like i've been working with people i don't really work with..
Like Cresta, Nelson, Sally, Ewen and Wyler.. haha.. all 1st time except for that Cresta.. hahaha

that's all for my week.. going to cicerellos tmr.. haha.. my mum's treat.. sunday going to church and play badminton after that.. gotta train for the south lake gala and future stars tourney..

My personal point of view about this week?.. WASTED!!!.. TOTALLY WASTED!!!~
from nxt week on.. i'm gonna prepare more for my nxt semester..
as well as read more books.. at the same time.. slp early and wake up early..
Gotta practice my skills as well.. cutting skills.. LOL..
I gotta exercise more as well..
If possible.. WORK MORE!!.. i need more $$$$$$$$$
I'm going to read on my textbook for nxt sem.. as well as the books which i borrowed from my sch's library.. on liqueurs and spirits.. haha.. my fav topic =)

that's all for now.. gonna post more later on..

new blog skin..
i've thought about a blogskin like this before..
Something that is linked to what i do daily.. haha.. FOOD..

like what it says.. Weapons of Mass Destruction..
haha.. and all i have to say is..
I CREATE AND MAKE THEM DAILY!!! MWHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!

it's a pretty old blog skin.. 2 years old already.. but it's really facinating..
I will want to make a blogskin one day.. one with my own cooking.. My own personal design..
Any Volunteers want to help me??..
Really Appreciated.. =)