Yes people, it's me here blogging again..
I know that on my msn nick now, it says that i'm drowning under homework..
so why am i blogging here NOW???..


Just one very simple reason, i've been having a lot of thoughts inside my head lately..
And a lot of things happened..
So i just thought of writing it down over here in my blog now..
To keep a record of what i've done lately..

Firstly,
O lvls have started in singapore.. And time really flies..
It reminded me of my time in singapore doing my O lvls..
And tmr marks my 10th mth in perth..
How fast time really flies??..
and in about 50 days, i'll be back in singapore for another 60 days =)
Talking about going back to singapore..
Of course i've been feeling excited..
Overly excited till i have no mood to do my assignments at all..
In a blink of an eye, i'm finishing my Cert 3 in commercial cookery already..
How awesome is that??..
i still remember my 1st lesson in tafe for commercial cookery..
I was learning how to make minestrone soup, cutting juliennes, macedonie etc..
But in actual fact,
there is this feeling on the inside of me telling me not to go back to singapore..
it's like a really strange feeling..


seriously speaking, i wonder what's to expect for me when i'm back in singapore..
recently, i have this dream..
about what happened at the airport..
It was exciting, touching yet a bit disappointing..
Bcoz in that dream, i saw that a few weren't there..
hope it's not a deja vu..
but i'm kinda like looking forward to see what's there to expect in december for me bah..


Secondly,
I was reading a few blogs and chatting on msn with a few of my juniors recently..
A few of my SL juniors to be exact..
2 of them are Heads of SL council now, like me 2 years ago..
They were sharing with me so many things..
And i have to seriously say these to all 3 of them:
"I'm really proud of the 3 of you.. do well and bring the council up to the nxt lvl bah.. All thebest.. Surpass me is a must for sure.. And never let ur passion for it die =)"

And u know, just talking to them, reading a few blogs of theirs,
really brings me back memories as a student last time..
it makes me really want to go back to school and enjoy school life once and again..
To hang out a lot with my anikis.. To be rebellious towards teachers.. HAHAHAHA =)


Apparently, i was by one junior's blog..
And i saw a pic of my juniors.. how are they now..
And when i saw those smile on their faces, i started to cry..
Bcoz i've actually seen how much they've grown up..
I remember how they used to be kids..
and now UPPER SECONDARY STUDENTS..
talking much more mature now..
But still, in front of me, still being playful like a kid at times..
but in actual fact,
i finally know how it feels like to be a senior..
like how my seniors used to look at me..
I finally realised how my seniors felt already..


Thirdly,
Just want to update on my job..
Basically, after what happened on last sat,
Jeffery called me from Albany on sunday noon..
Told me not to be stupid, ask me to report back to work..
So i went back that night..
And he said he don't accept my resignition..
And i was shocked bcoz Angela suddenly told me smth..
She firstly said, "from the bottom of my heart, i welcome you back =)"
And on that day, she told me something else as well,
she's gonna start training me inside the kitchen of box 3,
HOW AWSOME IS THAT???
I can finally start working in an industry kitchen!????!?!
WOOHOOO..
Of course i felt really excited..
But at a same ime, extremely touched about what she told me..
She said she wants to train me up inside a kitchen,
apart from that, she told me this, to be humble..
It seems like history is repeating.. She really reminded me of someone in the past..
Ms Chow..
Well, as of now, i will have to work extra extra hard to strive well in the kitchen..
I'll be starting my official training in the kitchen on the coming sunday..
Pray for me and wish me all the best yeah??

Fourthly,
I was chatting with a friend on thursday night after work..
Talking to her was really motivating all the time.. Extremely encouraging..
And i told her something that i've never told anyone in my life before..
About what i think of my dad, from the bottom of my heart..
And it just feels really good to say it out..
She was also telling me about her family, which i never expect her to tell me about..
and one thing that touches me alot will be her love from her parents and her love towards her family..
Not going into really deep detailed on what we chatted about..
But a plan that she got me to help her in really touched my heart..
It just shows me how much one values family love..
I told her about this coming chinese new year in 2009, most probably i'm gonna be lonely..
Eating reunion dinner alone..
And to my surprise, she said "you got me"..
Thank you so much =)

Hmm..
i realised that as i was typing this post, daylight saving has officially started..
I wonder how am i gonna survive with sun setting at 8pm everyday.. =(
hahaha.. just hope i don't have this jet-lag feeling again...
just to let you all know, daylight saving is a practice where an area or state will change their time to be ahead by 1 hour to cope with the summer..
Like for perth, it's gonna be 1 hour ahead of usual timing..
So that the sun will rise later and set very late.. just to save energy..
How cool is that?.. hahaha..

anyway, off to bed already.. gd night people
will blog again soon..

*10 mths has already passed since that day*
just being random here..

Labels: Australia, box 3, Thoughts and Feelings

Yesterday was considered the day when i lost my pride as a waiter.
I was working yesterday and something happened at my workplace.

In conclusion, to not further lose my pride as a waiter,
i've decided to resign from my workplace.

I was accused of something by a customer of things that i did not do.
But i fell into her trap by yelling at her friend.

No matter what happens,
no matter how much my colleagues told me it's not my fault,
i still feel bad.
Because no matter what,
it's my fault for yelling at the customer of mine.

I was seriously too pissed off with what lies she can come up with..
And a lot more that day,
Did i make the right decision by leaving that place.

Seriously speaking,
when i hand over my uniform in front of that situation,
Something in me just tells me that i have to walk out.
But some part of me tells me that i gotta walk back.
But i have no choice, i've already made that decision to step out and leave.

I called Cresta immediately after i leave,
I can't stop crying.
Because i was too hurt on the inside of me.
Talking to Cresta made me feel even much worst.
Yes i did felt better after talking to her.
But i somewhat felt like i've let my other customers who love me so much down.

When i recall back my 6 mths of work over there.
It has indeed been extremely fruitful.
At least now i finally realised that i indeed have my weakness as well.

People always thought that Ben is someone who is very jovial,
Someone who's very positive looking,
Someone who is loved by everyone.
But sorry, at times i have to be called Benjamin.
The old me who was depressed often,
who was lost and did not know what to do at all at times.

But what's the difference between Ben and Benjamin??..
Aren't they the same??..
Yes they are the same guy,
just that Benjamin has God with him and puts in a lot of effort in what he do.
Although Benjamin did not excel as well as Ben,
But Benjamin never fails to give up regardless of the situation.

Seriously, come to think of it now,
Yesterday, October 18 is a very special date to me.
It's actually my Spiritual Birthday.
Meaning, it's the date when i become a christian, back in 2003.

And in 18 October 2008, these simple thing that happened to me made my so upset.

I'm sorry Cresta and Jeffery, and all staff at Box 3 and Han's Cafe.
Sorry All the regular customers whom i've been serving.
It's time to let Ben go,
Because Ben has lost his pride enough already,
But he still needs to keep his pride as a professional waiter.


Tks for being there for me last night Weishan and Cresta.
Talking to u both really made me felt a lot better.

Departure indeed seems to be really tough,
but it's the only option left for me now.
Where is He when i needed him the most?
Or maybe, it's just that i shut myself up from him?
I just wonder which is it..

I always want to be a Hero in some sense
But I think, i still have a long way to go bah..

Labels: Australia, box 3, Thoughts and Feelings

Hey guys, blogging again today..
Just wanna post some pics on what i've been making in sch
Enjoy the pictures eh,
Hope it makes u all feel hungry =)


St Honre?? if i didn't rmb wrongly.. hahaha.. made of choux pastry.. looks awesome eh with the swan shape..
Chicken Supreme with lobster filling.. obviously tafe won' t be that generous to use lobster.. instead, used prawns.. an awesome dish with marvellous taste =)
Roast Duck Breast in red curry sauce.. hahaha.. yum =)
Strawberry ice cream.. Placed on top a Tuile basket and finished with strawberry coulis..
The whole dish take 1..
Version 2.. hahaha.. awesome eh.. with skippy jumping on top of a lemon sorbet =)
really learnt a lot from these 2 lessons the past week..
really hope that nxt wk will be as wonderful as the one i have the past week..

Finally took a stroll to fremantle..
Went on Wednesday.. On children's day.. my only day off this week..
The weather was really bad that day.. but thank God that it did not rain at all when i was walking around..

I took the train down to freo from perth..
Surprisingly, it was really fast..
Bcoz of the Perth's Royal Show being held near clarmount.. haha..
and fremantle line is having a train every 7 mins..
and it was super fast to freo.. took only 35 mins the most??..

Went to walk around, read some heritage related stuff..
As usual, a history lover.. =)
i just love to read about history.. hahahahaha..
u shld see how often i hop on to wikipedia, blog's archives etc..
just to read on history.. especially bout people and places..
it never cease to amaze me how beautiful the past can be..
So that the future is wonderful as it is today..

anyway, gonna post pics that i took that day bah..

This is the fremantle cat.. it's the free bus that is provided by the city of fremantle.. really useful one.. it brings u around fremantle.. it's wheelchair and prams friendly as well.. very convenient..


Walked around.. and took a look at a few landmarks.. i took this picture of a very old church.. it looks classy and vintage to me.. aweome looking..


Hopped onto the Cat again.. this time, i went to the shipwreck and maritime museum.. the oldest shipwreck museum in the entire australia i suppose.. it's an awesome place..


Out-side the museum, saw this big anchor.. haha.. there are like tons of it lying around fremantle.. especially by the coast..


Take 2..

Inside this museum, i've only managed to take a pic of a live exhibit of a real shipwreck leftover.. it shows a part of the ship that was shipwreck a long time ago.. back in the 17th century.. when the dutch was in australia..


Another pic of it.. a really awesome exhibit.. inside the museum, i've read a lot about what happened in australia during the 17th century.. when it was under the dutch.. seriously, a lot of things has indeed happened.. if i didn't rmb wrongly.. after the dutch was here, it was the french.. then finally the british when james cook came and set is foot ashore on australia =)


After i left the museum.. i went and set foot upon a shore.. it used to be a public bathing area during the early 20th century.. a lot of ships were wrecked at this area as well.. due to it's shallow shores..

Can you see the tortoise shape thingy over there??.. haha it's a marine museum.. a very famous one.. i heard that it's a place worth to visit.. they also have a submarine exhibit as well.. totally awesome.. =)
Beautiful aint it??.. hahaha.. but of course if it's sunny, it'll be superb.. I heard that over this shore, in the evening, u'll be able to see the beautiful sunset and sunrise.. i heard that it will all take place within seconds.. how awesome it is.. =) romantice view..


I was feeling rather hungry during my trip after viewing the shore.. right beside it has a few restaurants.. this one is Cicerello's.. it's very popular.. it's claimed to have the best fish and chips in the entire Western Australia.. frankly speaking i think it's really good.. the batter makes it super.. and as well as the fish they used, it's very fresh.. they even have their own fishing boat to fish for their own fishes..



This anchor was situated across the street of cicerello's.. got a few of them.. really HUGE..

Instead of cicerello's i've decided to drop by at kaili's instead.. it's as good as cicerello's.. haaha..Placed my order, sat down and idolised the view outside the restaurant..

Beautiful ain't it??..
Usually, after we place our order, the cashier will issue u a pager.. if ur order is ready, this thing will vibrate and beep..


A more detailed pic of it.. haha.. cicerello's have their own pager as well.. but it's round and flat..