Alrighty!!
Here to brighten my blog with pictures!!
Pictures about coffee making?? hahahahaha..
Enjoy eh =)

First up.. A few weeks ago, i approached jeffery and asked him to teach me how to froft good milk.. and this is a pic of how thick a good froth and milk shld be.. thick but still runny.. reminds u of melted marshmellows eh.. hahahaha..

Labels: Australia, tafe

Hey guys, finally time to update my blog once again..
and yup, it's gonna be full of long boring words again..

Anyway, last week is a super horrible week for me..
Full of nothing but negatives..
Not gonna go in detailed into them..
Bcoz, i'm not a negative idiot who gets super depressed over bad things..
LIKE WHAT WEISHAN THINKS I AM.. =.="

1) Driving Test
F-A-I-L-E-D!!!
Failed beautifully with almost an accident occuring near Carousel.. LOL..
I was day dreaming and almost bang the car coming from the right at a roundabout..
So it was my fault.. immediate failure..
Anyway.. Thank God that i failed..
Morale of the story!!!
DON'T EVER DREAM WHEN YOU DRIVE!!! HAHAHAHAHA..
And from this.. i'm ready for my next test =)

2) Coffee Making Comp
Well, the lectureres did not give us any further details about it at all..
So i did not took part in it..
Waste of my brain cells to think about how to improve my mocha..
But positively, i feel that since my mocha is better now..
It'll attract more customers to order it.. HOPEFULLY!! =)

3) Job Offers
ALL GONE!!
Either someone else took over my position bcoz of my hesitation..
Or it was bcoz i was not a PR, and they did not wanna hire internationals bcoz of the trouble..
BUT!! it means, i can try out for other places like Burswood..
Hope that they'll take me in as a waiter =)
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Last one... It's one which got me down until today..
I've spoken to Youlong and Alan about this problem..
Their reply to me: REST!!!
Alan told me that i've got a BURNOUT
Which means i'm too tired already..

SO WHAT IN THE WORLD EXACTLY HAPPENED TO BENBEN??
Last sunday, i was at South Lake for Pennants..
And when i was playing matches against Shaun..
I was so desperate to defeat him..
In my head, was nth but to win and defeat him..
But in the end, i lost to him not only in singles, but doubles and mixed doubles as well..
It was indeed a super BIG BLOW for me..
Not bcoz i lost..
It was bcoz.. I began thinking that badminton is just a weekly routine for me..
Just like having to eat, drink, go toilet and bath..
I began to feel no joy from it at all..
Seems like to me, it's just something that i must do.. not something i want to do..
I began to impose no joy in playing badminton at all

I was watching "Prince of Tennis", last ep of the Nationals..
Ryoma opened the last gate was bcoz, he remembered the first feeling he had when he started tennis..
Nanjirou mentioned that everyone can surely reach that stage..
It was when i got this thought came to my mind..
What was it like when i first played badminton?? Was it fun??
What were the memories of that time?? How was it like??
Can i actually tell myself this? "BADMINTON IS FUN RIGHT??"

And the answers to all these qns?
First time playing badminton for me was just for fun/leisure in Qihua Primary..
I was the team manager.. i only took up competitive badminton in Sec 1 in MSL..
Those were the only memories of what i can remember.. Those days in MSL..
I remember that i was the weakest link.. Always getting the team punished for running too slow
I was often jeered and laughed at by my seniors for being slow and lousy..
They even gave me the name "MSL TURTLE".. Bcoz, i was slow and i looked like one then..
But those days in MSL badminton when i first started out was fun!!!..
REALLY REALLY FUN!!
Those memories were so great that i'll never forget about it..
Because, it was where i build my foundation towards badminton..
I remember everyone, always wanting to compete to become the first in C division..
We were all having this goal.. To one day, go 2nd round.. to be the best in MSL..
Those days were really fun indeed.. Unforgetable..
Those were days full of laughter, smiles, anger, tears, sweat and sometimes blood..
But it was good.. so good that i'm aware that i kept on repeating stuff.. that's how gd it is!!
I remember telling myself this before.. 5 years ago in 2004, when i first started..
"BADMINTON IS SO FUN!!", "I LOVE BADMINTON!!"
But now.. I can't bring myself to say it anymore..

WHERE ARE YOU!!! MY LOVE AND PASSION FOR BADMINTON!!!
WHERE ARE YOU!! COME OUT COME OUT WHEREVER YOU ARE!!
DON'T HIDE FROM ME ANYMORE!! IT'S TOO PAINFUL FOR ME TO FIND YOU!!

This pain of losing badminton..
Reminded me of the same degree when i was rejected by those girls many years ago..
The aftermath of it especially.. Too much to bear..
Too painful.. hope that i'll find that love for it once again soon..
Wish me all the best yeah??
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Anyway, i still owe people out there a few post
1) Loving kids is not giving them what they want..
2) What is friendship?? What does it mean?
3) Youlong's holiday to perth =)

Well people.. it's time for me to sleep..
Having doctor's appointment for checkup for my back in 6 hours time..
Hope everything will be well eh =)
And i'll be recommended to a good specialist for treatment
Good night people.. bye bye

Labels: Australia, Badminton, decisions, health, Thoughts and Feelings

Time for blogging again..
A few people has been pestering me to blog.. HOR HUIFONG??? LOL!!!
I wanted to blog about "Loving Kids doesn't mean giving them whatever they want"
But too bad.. i just didn't have the atmosphere to blog about it yet.. HAHAHAHA =.="
Although i can't find the momentum to blog yet.
But i suppose that as the more i type.. the more my fingers will carry on..
I suppose being an extrovert, being a Social Realist..
The more i start to talk or think.. the further i can go..

So i was wondering where shld i start from??
First just to update people with my life??
Well, this wk's officially my last wk working in Box3..
I suppose that many of u guys have heard me saying this countless times..
But it' already confirmed by Grace and Jeffery already..
So yes, Ben's leaving Box 3.. but not for good yet..
Bcoz i have to make sure that before i totally let go, i have to train a strong bartender up first..
Bcoz as of now, i'm the "strongest" bartender who works on busy shifts..
And the one who "mastered" all the cocktails and smoothies so far..
So bo bian..
I feel that going back and train them up, is not my job..
But it's my responsibility as an ex senior staff/supervisory staff in Box 3..
I don't care whether people think that i'm a show off or not,but it's really my responsiblity..

I've been also busy with my upcoming driving practical exams..
Been screwing up my reverse parking.. totally horrible..
Thanks to the really really hot weather all along..
I pray that nxt wed will have a perfect weather.. =)

Had lunch at the Bentley Pines Restaurant today to celebrate Wendy's Birthday..
Our class was there celebrating for her..
It was my 1st time dining in there after being a student there for 14 mths..
This experience is really memorable.. Iwill never forget it..
When after desserts, the cake we bought for her suddenly pop out behind her..
With the classes at the bar and restaurant and our entire class singing for her,
she was like on the verge of tears..
And we got a watch for her and she really loved it..
And i will never forget that reaction that she had.. It was something that i'll never forget..

Anyway, I've decided to join the coffee making comp.. after much encouragement and motivation from so many people around me..
Serene was right.. Joining doesn't mean i have to win.. it's for experience and exposure..
I want to show my love for coffee making to people..
I want to show them what a good coffee is from a young man's interpretation..
I was also thinking to myself..
I want to join a cocktail making competition if possible..
Lily told me something at work today that really touched me..
"Ben, i believe that you are gonna go really really far and excel extremely well in this industry"
Simple words.. but it was really touching..
I really really wanted to cry..
It really was true words from deep inside her heart.. i can feel it.. tks lily =)
Because being young, it's not easy to be accepted by the people around me..
I was being despised or labelled as a rejected product from back in singapore..
I really really want to show people that whatever i've talked about..
Is not for people to hear.. but it's for people to see and believe and acknowledge me..
I want the world to see me as someone who's not talented.. but someone who put in that extra effort into that passion of his in making his dream and goals coming to past..
I believe that such a day is approaching soon..
I strongly believe in it..

Linking to my updates of life..
I began thinking about showing appreciation to others..
Just such simple words and gestures will actually touch people's life..
Really really simple stuff.. Like saying "Hey!! YOU CAN DO IT!!"
Small words, but BIG BIG meaning..
As long as it's from the heart.. Genuinely from the heart..
Whoever whom u apply it to..
Surely they'll be able to feel something..
Just like wendy who felt it from our class..
And myself who felt it from Lily..

Thanks everyone for whatever you've done for me so far..
I guess so far, i'm someone who did not really show appreciation to you all bah..
And now, just take this time to thank you all =)
Thanks for being a part of my life..
With lots and lots of Love..
From Benben

Labels: Australia, box 3, decisions, Memorable events, school life, tafe, Thoughts and Feelings

Will i ever be appreciated for who i am??
Instead of my skills and abilities..

Will i ever be appreciated for what's on the inside??
Instead of what i do on the outisde..

hmmmm.. i wonder...

Labels: Thoughts and Feelings