Today i'll be posting about something that has been in my mind for the past few days..
It's regarding birthdays..
The purpose of it and how to celebrate it..

Suddenly thought of this topic bcoz my birthday is coming.. 29th June if i didnt rmb wrongly -.-"" haha..
It's like in 18 days time..

I've been thinking a lot about this birthday.. haha.. although it's nth special.. just a 17 year old birthday.. yup.. 17 is indeed nothing special at all.. stuck in-between 16 and 18..

My wish for this year??.. hmm.. just decided to post it up here bah.. since so many people around me has been asking me for what i wish for.. so i shall post..

I'm selfish.. i really thought about what i want and what i need.. so just post them here bah.. no harm.. since no one never intended to give me anything from the beginning anyway.. will post them at the bottom of the blog bah..

Just now on my way home, my mum was talking about how we gonna celebrate it this year.. i was like surprised.. bcoz from what i remember throughout my secondary school life, my family or no one around me ever celebrated it for me before..
They are either busy with work, overseas or forgotten..
I'm really disappointed in one person especially, surprisingly, he's my own biological dad..
Most people dont know this, i'm from single parent family..
And the worst thing is, my dad doesn't even know the date i'm born.. even when he does when i was younger, he never keeps his promises.. NEVER..

Even last year.. my sch mates didnt remember.. my juniors didnt remember.. worst thing.. my sports leaders didn't remember as well.. how disappointing is that??.. haix..

So back to my conversation with my mum.. i was surprised like i've said that they are planning to have a celebration this year..
with my new family..
The plan she had was to bring the family out to a japanese restaurant to eat..
At the same time, celebrate her 1st pay check..
As she've promised my younger step brother to take him to japanese restaurant..
But share with u all something.. I REALLY HATE BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS LIKE DINNERS AT BORING RESTAURANTS!!!!!
the main reason is simple.. i cook almost everyday.. and i gotta go and eat at outside something that i've learned in sch or i even cooking better than them??..
Ridiculous eh??..
And what more when u eat already, come out from the other end.. No meaning??..
I always love my birthday celebration to be memorable.. Not like any other simple dinner..
I want to have something that i can keep as a momento.. Something that i like??... Or something that i want??..
Why must it have to be the wishes of someone else and not mine??.. this is nonsense..

Can i just be selfish for this once??..
I personally feel that i've been putting in a lot of effort for this and that already..
Does anyone ever knew the pain i have??..
About birthdays that i wish i had but i can't have??..

I can't be appreciative anymore.. bcoz this day is special to me.. i dont think i want to go on saying anything else already.. Don't want to spoil my mood or my reader's one as well..

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Wish List:
- Shades aka sunglasses.. really need one.. to people who don't know.. australia is as good as no O-zone layer already.. totally destroyed.. and the sun, piercing.. my eyes has been experiencing discomfort the past few weeks expecially.. cold plus that kind of monsterous sunlight.. what more??..

- To sort out my own thoughts and feelings.. Have been really confuse lately.. a lot about personal life.. hope that i'll get them sort out soon bah..

- A new guitar.. A better one..
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No point going on.. the more i type, the more i see that the more i gotta work my ass off over such low pay to get what i want.. Studies still come first bah.. Can't be bothered much.. I can't rely on others all the time..

On the whole, My main birthday wish this year is for all my love ones to stay strong and healthy.. and the world is a better place to live in as the days go by.. =) that's all

Take care mates =)