Lately, there has been a lot of things that has been going through in my mind..
So many things that i just wanna take time off..
I wish time would just "S-T-O-P" now..
So that i could just sit down and sought my thoughts now..
I'm trying to find peace inside myself..
But i can't seem to find the spot where i find my peace..

I remember foo kai told me this before..
about him finding a place where he will just go down there to pray..
I want to find that place also..
Where i can not only go down there and seek God..
But somewhere where i can be led by the Spirit to sought my thoughts out..
Somewhere where after coming out of that place..
My mind will be fresh..
I will become a stronger person..

I don't want to just stay at home during my free time..
I should stop my laziness and excuses to stay at home..
I should also go out and explore..
Find somewhere where i can just relaxxxxxxxxx and think...
Staying at home will just waste time..
It's also no gd for health..
Bcoz i'll be staying in my room all day..
Using my computer..
watching anime and surfing the net..

Well, recently, i was promoted to a supervisory position in Box 3..
After working there for almost a year.. I was finally promoted..
But sad to say was.. "sorry.. i'm quitting this job" already..
Well, promote me, but my pay is still the same..
The workload is indeed bigger than last time..
And i got better offers ahead of me just waiting for me to say "yes" or "no" to them..

well.. forget about such stuff..
so sick and tired about talking about it almost everyday..
I just want a break from work.. that's all..

Anyway.. despite a lot of thoughts inside of me..
I still find myself locked up to myself..
Like my feelings inside's being locked up..
i guess i also came to this point to realise that i don't love her anymore le bah..
let her go already..
Reason?? simple.. it's hard to really love someone..
I wonder how God's being able to love everyone unconditionally..
Can i have such love for specific people as well? or am i able to do that to everyone??
It's really hard..
Really really hard..
But.. i'm so gonna try it..
No matter how hard it really is..

Recently, i came upon to realise how much i'm really missing people in singapore..
And i was also wondering..
DO YOU GUYS IN SINGAPORE MISS ME TOO?? =X
Shall not elaborate more bah..
Not gonna get too emotional at a late time like this now..
If not.. i'm gonna have a super hard time sleeping =X
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Anyway, before i end off.. post this pic i took at work the other day.. my 1st day doing my duty as a supervisor.. finally get to wear a tie le =) Cresta, are you proud of me?? Really miss you a lot..
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